Sounds like you need to get down to earth. I'm going to make a pretty weird suggestion but - you live in a small town right? People have lawns that need mowing, weeding to be done, cars need washing, windows need to be cleaned, odd jobs needed around the house. There is plenty of work to be done.
Rather than thinking startup, funding, business, figures blah blah blah just get out there and start being useful to your community. You'll make friends, you'll get exercise and become more healthy, you'll make some money and you'll give yourself time to think things through.
Give yourself 2 full years. See how much money you can make and save in this time. If you're suffering from crippling debt, talk to a debt consultant or financial advisor to find out about your options. Bankruptcy is not the end of the world (although I'm not sure about how things are in the US, I've known folks here in Australia who declared bankruptcy and it was the best thing they ever did).
In short, shake things up and do something completely different. Engaging with your community is a fantastic way to overcome your social anxieties, also.
I think you need to remind yourself that life can be simple - and that all of your fears and anxieties are more ephemeral than you realise.
Rather than thinking startup, funding, business, figures blah blah blah just get out there and start being useful to your community. You'll make friends, you'll get exercise and become more healthy, you'll make some money and you'll give yourself time to think things through.
Give yourself 2 full years. See how much money you can make and save in this time. If you're suffering from crippling debt, talk to a debt consultant or financial advisor to find out about your options. Bankruptcy is not the end of the world (although I'm not sure about how things are in the US, I've known folks here in Australia who declared bankruptcy and it was the best thing they ever did).
In short, shake things up and do something completely different. Engaging with your community is a fantastic way to overcome your social anxieties, also.
I think you need to remind yourself that life can be simple - and that all of your fears and anxieties are more ephemeral than you realise.